Today is better than yesterday

yesterday was better than the day before

so things seem to get better

for the majority

of the time

I'm awake

I hope that tomorrow is better than to day

People seem to fade as do their intentions

after all maybe they do mean well but just cant help it!!

I guess I do get angry and very disheartened of their real life

or the life that they want you to know about.

Faces put on to impress the other

but in reality we all are the same with our

own just

flavored with different colors

and temptations on every corner

of every block you seem to travel

No

seems to be out of the question

or not at all a feasible

Today is different !!!

Today is different

Because

I have decided not to

be compliant

to everyone's else's needs

or wants or fears

Maybe they need to feel mine for a change

Today is different

Because

I am new to this and the animosity will soon be gone or maybe it will stay

with me forever

I hope that this time I have learned the value of human life

possibly mine own

I seem to have found my new skin to show

off to my friends

one that they only have seen years before the horrid

ordeal overcame my entirety.

I have been someones else's shadow for years

always picked second

never

made to feel as though i was the first choice

in reality i was the later choice

the one that they settled for

whom

paid the price

for not being the one

he wanted in the beginning

the one who has wasted all of my good years,

for what to benifit in the end for the one he wanted first

Would she bore him a child?

No!!

She's too arrogant!!

.....too Vain

Too Ignorant to even know the difference

of theese.

Been Awhile !!!!!!!!!!!!

Its been awhile since I have last posted
but that's okay
I've been busy with
the move and all

it seems as though my days piggyback each other
override
too much to do
and only one of me
my kids are great helpers and light for this dingy path
I could not have asked for this great of a gift

I will finally be free
from the hell jail of this
horrid place I've called home for so long
after all no one really cares
as long as they don't have to be the
ones to help ;
" Oh call me "
"no problem"
they seem to think I really
am that dense, to
believe that they
even do care
I just nod and go on,
as if I have ever really
believed

Thank God,
I have now gotten rid of all of the broken plates and empty apologies
I am free
its liberating
to know
that I can now live the life
freely.

I almost feel as though I have
been trapped in some horrible
kidnapping fiction novel.
where the man brainwashes the woman to believe
he is the one she need
ha!

To live
but he don't tell her that he had other women
in some other cities
with the same kind of damage done

I just hope that this job and school don't get the best of me,

maybe it will be better

I guess I could always move to a hippy commune and live
there.

they all
LOVE ya

maybe i just need to shut up
maybe i just need to finish my book and work

maybe ill
just be hopeful and trudge on this path a bit more than i have plannnd
afterall
it isnt that long a year away from europe maybe,
ill fiund a housse in italy and stay forever there and eat pasta and get maarried to righ old man
to take care of me

that wouldnt be so bad
Yes it would im young free and somewhat happy
ill be ok now that ive said all of this

I'll feel better too
after i have walked to had out theese pamplets for
kingsport
cleaner enviroment
yeah right.
We have eastman here,
Are they joking?

It's totally impossible for this old town to
be clean ever..

Not even if we really
wanted it.

Well, that's all from me for now
i hope this is better
somehow than before
it is just me
no big deal


Love Ginna